dear this pretty world , i want to start it with my dirty words or start it blaming the time and blaming my destiny who takes me this far but as I’m an Arabian negga i cant blame my self thats what we learn from being Arabs ,well i guess I’m gonna screw this Arab rule and blame ma self for many ages and for different things iv
been done it in my shitty nice life , its all in comes from the primary way to the main life way and what u v done in Ur life no matter if its good or bad right or wrong nice or rude in the end it happened to you no matter when or where in the end u will learn , and I’m talking about my self as a person growers on the traditional way , which is to be typical thats what my parents wanted to me , but after my father death i changed this philosophy and i believe that it helped me alot and may change my destiny , i believe that it was a chance to make a early career and start it from the zero . but what i can see every day is the generation after me , I’m 23 years old ,i just see that the generation is getting worst and worst after me .. i thought that I’m the worst ever but here am i start to think that I’m not bad boy.. or at least I’m not the worst around ,I’m writing this blog after hanging out in all dxb night clubs and i just want to reach that feeling which is letting me don’t want anything ,(I’m enough from everything) , i tried everything , why should i try it again and again , there is not highness in replaying , like sex and drink and smoking some shit , whats the point of all that ? its all an matter of seconds highness , and after that we back to the real world , some of us will regret because he had sex with a whore and didn’t protect himself , others will also regret because the cheat on there wives or damage there body with alcohol and smoking the weed , why we all doing this .?? this question always in my mind when i see an old man running after a whore ,i turned to my dude and tell him (that will never be me) i want to die before being this kind of man , I’m sure of my self I’m sure that i will never sell my soul for the devil , yesterday i saw a friend , he is in the 30s and he where dancing like a 18 years old negga who try to get attention to him specially t